I am, no- let me put it this way, “was” very excited about my 47 year plan. I was beginning to lose weight; got tickets booked for travel and life seemed to flow the way I wanted; but all this till yesterday. I was having this coffee talk with a colleague and the topic threads led to 2012 and the world coming to an end. I have seen the movie, 2012 (the science fiction disaster adventure film directed by Roland Emminech) and was then taken by awe. I can’t imagine my life coming to an end in another 2 years. I have so many plans, dreams, my wish list and most of all I have just begun to live my life.
So back to the coffee talk, what started as the usual morning catch-up session ended up instilling fear in me. My colleague has read and written articles on 2012 was pretty convincing and assured that all my fears of the world coming to an end is real. She could give me all the reasons as to why this can happen, leaving a horrified me( the Mayan calendar, planet Neru, something with the earth’s magnetic field and again something with the sun’s surface).
I rewind slightly backward to May 2010. I have quit a good job (for my parents’ sake!!!), looking for another(very difficult), unwanted advises pouring in (irritating); parents tensed with their daughter’s single status (not my fault); to make things short- life was HELL! I remember thinking if life is meant to be this – then maybe God MUST consider taking me home soon! I fast forward to the present- October 2010. I am happy, content, and satisfied. I have no reason to complain. I thank God for this life as a blessing.
She leaves my workstation giving me the fear of having no time. I want to be around for some more time. But if the whole world is over, why would I want to be the “lone survivor”- it can get boring.
No, I want life to go like this, happy me, happy parents, ok-ok world and our ok-ok ways in life. If it must go, it must all go together. But still I can’t have the world end in another two years, because:
• I want to see a “slimmer” me.
• I have not been to the North Pole.
• I don’t have XXXX amount in my bank account.
• I don’t have a wedding picture of mine!!
• I have not collected my Master’s certificate yet.
• I don’t know to cook the perfect Sambar.
• I can’t apply make-up well.
• I have not had the perfect surprise birthday party!
• I have not written a book.
• I have not seen the world.
• I have not done enough good to people.
• …… And so many other things!
How can the world come to an end with more than half my wish list unfulfilled? I have heard someone say; if you need to know the value of time- ask the lover at the airport waiting for a flight to land!
So from today, I have decided to live my life to the fullest. First thing I am doing today as I get home is tell my parents how much they mean to me; what if the world decides to come to an end earlier and they never get to know!!!